Apr 9, 2014

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[Review] Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind by Shunryu Suzuki

Zen is not a philosophy or religion. It is not some esoteric teaching that will illuminate you with deep thoughts and koans that you must understand in order to attain some illusory goal. Zen is a way of liberation from a life run by your thoughts. Zen is Now.

Reviewing these types of books remains something I don't necessarily wish to do. How does one review a spiritual text or teaching? Either it resonates with you, or it does not.

Because of this, this will not be a review as such, but a means of propagating awareness of this book's existence and that of Zen.

It is true that one can gain bounds of theoretical knowledge from a number of books, but is that knowledge necessary? Unapplied knowledge will always remain useless knowledge, while this book will give you ways of actual practice that does not involve incisive thinking, but instead teach you how to come from a point of presence.

Most never find this resonating substance or text when it comes to spiritual "data" and so just plough from book to book, hoping the next will provide that which is needed for some spiritual "ascension". But this way of thinking is wrong, because that ascension is already here, it was always here, now. Because one does not realize this, and as a result does not know how to apply this to everyday life, these types of books may become almost a drug. That is to say, a drug user will always look to a drug in order to find something or to be liberated from something, yet a drug is always "out there", so the lie the drug tells you is that you need to find something out there to locate or "fix" something within. Yet the within cannot be "fixed" by applying something from the without. Yet this testament is also true and untrue. You may find this contradictory when I say that this book will show you, since this book is also without, outside you, yet it points within.

Zen is like this. Zen is contradictory, because the very nature of Duality is something that exists only in mind. Zen will never give you anything that you do not already have. It will simply show you how there really is nothing to fix. There is a sort of catch, however. There must be an everyday practice to attain this. Some may attain this presence spontaneously, but for most there is posture, breath, right-thinking and practice in presence and mindfulness. In Zen this is always done with direct pointing. It will never give you any philosophical thoughts, because that is the domain of the mind, You don't need such thoughts. The focus of Zen is always in the Now. Because the Now is all there is. Time is illusory. Even if you think of the future or the past, you are always doing it now. Even if you plan something for the future, you will execute that plan within that future Now. This is fact.

Yet the reason why Zen might not appeal to those more used to elaborate thinking, is because Zen attempts to make you look, to stand behind the one who is thinking and observe the thinker and realize that the thinker is a rather ridiculous, erratic creature... Funny, but ultimately ridiculous.

Two students ask the master, as they look upon a waving flag in the distance:
Student 1: Look, the wind is moving, it is beautiful.
Student 2: No, the wind is erratic, it is the flag that moves.
Master: Both the flag and the wind simply are. It is mind that moves.

Mar 29, 2014

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Psychosphere (Noosphere); a term previously unnoticed has recently gained some traction after being mentioned in the HBO series True Detective. It is also a concept I find endlessly fascinating. As should you!

Simply put, it is the sphere of all human thought, but since thought for most implies conscious thinking only, it would be better to say "a sphere of human consciousness". Imagine a biosphere, only instead of it being a mix of different gasses, the psychosphere is a mix of subtle fields of thought.

There is some work being done on this, a rather strange project being one of these works. It is run online and spread over an egg network, called The Global Consciousness Project. The first paragraph is indeed promising and their pages show some interesting data for those who are willing to figure out what all the numbers mean (it's not that hard):

"When human consciousness becomes coherent, the behavior of random systems may change. Random number generators (RNGs) based on quantum tunneling produce completely unpredictable sequences of zeroes and ones. But when a great event synchronizes the feelings of millions of people, our network of RNGs becomes subtly structured. We calculate one in a trillion odds that the effect is due to chance. The evidence suggests an emerging noosphere or the unifying field of consciousness described by sages in all cultures."

It's interesting how these kinds of phenomena still reside in the sphere of pseudo-psychology. Collective Consciousness, Noosphere, and even the Collective Unconscious, all of these things seem intrinsicly real yet still remain outside science, simply because we have not yet found an apparatus that could detect them outside the human brain.
Fascinating that we have become a species that places more trust in the results produced by machines than those of the human mind when it comes to subtle fields of thought. Also, what I mean by intrinsic reality is simply this: in deeper states of meditation and/or under the administration of certain psychotropic drugs, we can and will undeniably feel the presence and hard reality of this psychosphere. It can also happen quite spontaneously and one does not need to attain a deep state of meditation or higher consciousness to become suddenly aware of this sphere. This experience, which can also be described as the experience of universal unity, cosmic consciousness, or in a slightly milder case/form, an Oceanic Experience, or even Satori, has remained a constant throughout the ages, yet such (relativity)* subjective experiences yet remain in the realm of pseudo science or pseudo psychology.


I wonder how many people would need to have an actual experience of this, and in how big of a collective, to make this pseudo experience pass into "reality". Science likes things that can be reproduced, it values (it!) consistency, but this experience remains no less consistent than the experience of love or desire, it is simply subtler and more prone to different interpretations and labelling.

In this regard it is interesting to note how our minds always feel the almost compulsive need to label things. This sense is so pervasive, that in ancient Babylon, it was ruled that a thing without name is no thing at all, meaning that a thing without a name does not exist, for how could it? For this reason they actually had people with jobs to name things and put them on tablets.

This labelling of things of the without has lead us to "rediscover" stuff that had been known about for thousands of years. A new name makes it feel almost as if it is new. For instance, the Collective Consciousness was already talked about in the Bhagavad Gita, a text thousands of years old with a basis even older than tat, yet put a new name on a concept, a name like psychosphere (which does sound cooler, doesn't it?), and this becomes a new idea for those less aware of its origin and other terms meaning the same thing.

But this rediscovering is good. The name doesn't really matter as long as we are talking about the same thing. Most would call it God, and at the same time cringe at the term Collective Consciousness. Some would make differences between the Collective Consciousness and the Collective Unconscious. But really, they are all one, multiple terms for the same basic thing, multiple names because of this very need for us to understand the understandable.

Building machines to understand consciousness is like trying to understand a philosophical thought through the workings of a computer. We forget that we already possess the best tool to understand consciousness.

This of course is nothing new, countless books have been written on this subject, and now, slowly over the past century, physicists have been rediscovering the basic principles of unity which every spiritual text of the world talks about. It is simply the language, the labels that have been altered.
For instance, there is now a firm belief that there needs to be a wholly new outlook on what makes everything we inhabit. That if one truly wishes to understand the nature of things, one cannot understand them fully with the current system of science, because when you go deeper in reality, deeper into the core where all reality emanates from, one finds that the principles that make science understandable simply do not apply. A different set of rules govern each layer of reality, until at last you come deep enough where nothing can be separated from any other thing. You begin to find that, just like the sages and mystics of ancient times, one needs to look within and from standpoint of unity, to understand, because there is no greater tool to understand consciousness than consciousness. It is made so that it may understand itself, it delights in this, because understanding that deepest self means understanding the very universe out of which if fazes into its three dimensions. Instead of crude matter which we can see and touch and feel, instead of energy in the form of force and other more subtler forces, there is only consciousness. Precipitated consciousness, manifesting in different forms, most of which wholly contingent upon the observer.

A good talk and much more detail on this can be found on youtube, a presentation from a perspective of a field theorist, Dr.John Hagelin.

*[the reason why I added relatively is because there seems to be a confusion as to why something remains relative, even if there are countless beings who have had an identical experience. The imprints received while having the experience differed, yet a fact that it happened and that it shared the same basic principles for all individuals cannot be denied.]

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Mar 25, 2014

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[Review] The Quantum Thief by Hannu Rajanjemi

The more you think when reading this book, the worse off you'll be. The more you simply let go and realize things will come, leaving them as they are, the better this book will become. In this regard, it is an excellent exercise in letting go, as well as being a damn sexy read. Reading this book somehow feels very Zen.

It's a read that will either stamp you with "oh shit, let's see what happens next", or "meh, too much stuff". If you belong in the second category, then I don't know why the hell you are reading science fiction in the first place, but okay...

The best part about this book is how everything is in your face from the get go. The author is like, I won't bother explaining this to you, because why should I, just read the damn thing and figure it out yourself. Although everything is eventually explained, it is explained just enough. 

I wont bother with the plot because it is too awesome to explain even a bit and needs to be experienced instead. 

The prose is delicious.

The only problem I had were the dialogues, especially the main character's lines. They at times felt so cliché to me it became painful once or twice, I think I actually cringed once. He is like some overly witty dude that knows exactly what to say, as if he is in some movie and not an actual character. Luckily this didn't happen a lot, and most of the other dialogues were pretty great. Yet that feeling that the author wanted the main character to be this paragon on nonchalance always crept in, like he wanted desperately for the main char to be cool that it shows.

The social ramification of the technology in this book should not elude even the most inept reader.

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Adventures in Internetlessness

In light of recent events I find it necessary to point out that I have been without internet for quite some time. I think it's been like six months now...? Sure enough, I had access to it on my phone, but's that not quite the same as being able to browse with a mouse and keyboard. And OH DEAR LORD how I didn't miss it at all. I find it funny it has taken me this long to realize it has been such a strong detriment to my personal, inner growth and most of all PRODUCTIVITY. And at last, realize that I am my own detriment to productivity. Ish.
I limit myself now, which is for the best, I think, there is nothing useful up here that can outweigh meditation. Sitting in meditation or reading, as opposed to spending an hour on the internet has become a no-brainier, I only wish more people would realize how over-saturated one can get with useless information up here in this data-web. "Then find information that will not be useless," I hear you say... and you are right, but senseless use and, oh dear god the facebook-hoppers, nooooooooo, it is the damnable abyss!

It feels slightly odd writing this and posting it on the internet though, hahaha. 

Mar 19, 2014

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Dreamscapes and The Interpretation of Dreams

Dreams are an extension of you. They are the buried you, the secret you. They are the you under all of your years and all of your memories and all your secret desires. Dreams allow you peer into your inner self with a strange, twisted gaze. For once you look inside. For once they see through and into the illusion that is you and, for once, images flow without restraint and forced interpretation and labelling of the conscious mind. Dreams are the inner eye, drawing its gaze upon itself.

Recently I've been reading The Interpretation of Dreams again, by Sigmund Freud, (the illustrated version is particularly interesting) and there are some quite miraculous cases and anecdotes in it, as well as examples of interpretations that would never have arisen had the psychiatrist not gone into in-depth talks with his subject beforehand. That is to say, to know one's dreams, you must first know the person who dreamt them. Which begs the question as to why we can rarely successfully interpret our own dream. Do we know so little about ourselves?

Sigmund would confirm this to be the case and often refers to this "unknowing" as something quite normal.

The subconscious is a net to which you have access to without realizing it. And if the concept of COEX System is indeed accurate, meaning that memories and emotional and physical experiences are stored in the psyche not as isolated bits and pieces, but in the form of complex constellations, then each dream holds its own impressions an emotional depth, likely a multitude of them. In this fashion, your dreams draw from these layers of Neuron webbing that have been slightly dormant in your day to day life, pulsing beneath new and fresher layers, but still just as active.

It is interesting to note there are so few points that make up the dream and its contents when it comes to its material and sources, and once you realize what they are, it may make it easier to interpret some of them.

There are three points which are most important, and follow as such:

1. The dream distinctly prefers impressions of the few days preceding the dream.

2. The dream makes its selection according to principles other than those of our waking memory, meaning that it recalls not what is essential and important, but what is subordinate and disregarded.

3. The dream has at its disposal the earliest impressions of our childhood, and brings to light details from this period of life which again seem trivial to us, and which in waking life were considered long ago forgotten.

All of this is preceded by the notion that All Dreams Are, in their basis, The Realization of a Wish. Yet that wish may be hidden behind layers of conflicting information and are subject to something called "Dream Distortion".

The last part (3) is especially difficult to judge when it occurs, because the respective elements of the dream are not recognized according to their origin after waking. This conclusion thus can only be reached objectively, yet can sometimes be recognized when the dream held a certain kind of "power", which can only be fully explored when subject to interpretation.

I have began keeping a dream diary and take notes of the dreams while I still remember them, since most but the severely powerful and "educational" dreams tend to fade within 4-15 minutes after waking. The experience so far has proven interesting.

Inspirational? Maybe.

Mar 9, 2014

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[Review] The Ocean at the End of the Lane Neil Gaiman

It is perhaps a wondrous thing that we cannot always understand why we like something. It's this 'not knowing', I think, that gives a certain added sense of wonder to most things.
It is like this with The Ocean at the End of the Lane. I really can't say why I liked it so much, nor why I could not stop reading it. The nearest I can come in describing how I felt while reading, was that I became lost in it. Much like one can get lost in a woman's eyes, or in a sound or smell. The sensation this book cocoons you in is magical, which is apt, since the book itself and its happenings are nothing else but magical.

There are certain existential fears the tome pries upon, but more than that, it somehow grabs your inner child by the throat with meaty hands and kinda rapes him. But in a good way. The introspective and childlike nature of it is addicting. It kept on reminding me of the fact that one never really gets old, you're still all the ages you were since you were born, it is merely the layers that kept piling on, masking the fact that we are still that child and giving the sense of masked maturity and deeper understanding, while making us forget the value of innocence. Yet our primal fears remained the same. Neil knows this, we all know this, feel this, and that's why this book has an impact.

Death and the other side of it and what lurks in the infinite recesses between worlds seems a theme that runs rampart through all the spaces where the words are missing, but also the will to live and hope, friendship.

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Jan 23, 2014

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( visual stimulus...? )
There is a certain group of people you shall come across in your life towards whom you'll feel an immediate thread of possibility, connecting you. You'll almost never realize what it was that has caught your "eye", because most of the time, it's never a superficial thing. You'll rarely recognize what the feeling is, but you will always feel it. This event of interconnectivity may happen by chance encounters with strangers, associates of friends, relatives, etc.
Sometimes it's their visual appearance which sets the net of possibility in motion, sometimes it is their personality, sometimes you cannot  pinpoint what it is.
In most cases, your immediate, gut reaction upon seeing these fields of vibration will usually consist of you not wishing to have anything to do with the person in question - at least not initially. But like a slumping glacier, you'll be powerless to stop the motion of events, for the interwoven paths have already been set by the mere presence or sight of them, or by the mere idea of them.
You do not feel a possibility that might be, but a possibility that will be, one which has already been laid out, preset. It is up to you to decide how the events within this constellation of chance will play out. But play out they will, in all the universes, in all times, over and over, through lifetimes and through infinite paths.

They will play out because they are the possibilities which you need to tread. Minds do not shape themselves, they are shaped by other minds. And the mind knows this, it searches for this. It craves this. It is elevated by this and brought high by this.
The only trick then, is to learn how to sense and recognize this feeling.

Dec 23, 2013

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After a year of rambling posts and nonsensical text, I thought maybe I should post something normal... ?

Beh, I will say this: if you come here to actually read something ... then you are pretty fucking weird. I like that.
Keep being pretty fucking weird next year too.

And don't forget about the


Dec 16, 2013

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[Review] The Subterrene War by T.C. McCarthy

I didn’t have time to think, not even like, Wait a second, I’m about to wipe someone I don’t even know. Didn’t happen. Those thoughts came only later, in nightmares. Daymares.

It is no secret that I hate Mark Lawrence, so after he reviewed Germline on Goodreads, (no, I am not stalking him, Geezus, relax!) I thought to myself, “Oh, look here, another thing for me to hate.”

And so it began. Rather quickly, I might add, since The Bookdepositry offered the whole trilogy for a measly 15 euros. “Hell yes, give it here,” is what I said next, then waited. I waited and, for a while, lo and behold, nothing happened.

Then the postman delivered my drugs and I am quite certain I had that special (retarded) glee on my face; the same one that’s always there when I begin to open a package containing a tome as of yet unknown to me. What glee, what joy, eh?

Anyway, the first book is the one I absolutely devoured. The Gonzo style spoke to me. The excessive drug use and graphic violence caressed my gentle soul, and the prose was masturbate-worthy. Yeah, I said it. Masturbate worthy. It is as if someone had dug up the grave of Hunter S. Thompson and told him, “I know you’re pissed right now, but there’s this thing you have to do.” The reluctant Hunter does this, of course, and what we get is Fear and Loathing done in the fashion of Military Sci-Fi. Differences are there, of course... that is to say, T.C. McCarthy is pretty great on his own without me comparing his style to anyone else.

I read some reviews before I purchased these books, and what irks me a bit is that most of the bad ones either simply didn’t read the whole thing (imo you don't get to review a book like an asshole if you didn't read the whole thing), or felt there wasn’t enough backstory (there were other reasons too, but I chose to ignore those on the grounds that they were stupid). This is not a book like that, this is not a world-building romp of fantasy madness with 5+ POVs. This is a first person narrative, this is in your face. This is packed with thermal bombs and drones flying over your head with you not knowing if they’re yours or your enemy’s. And that’s why this is so good. Fuck a backstory when the story itself feels and reads like you’re there. Fuck a backstory when it is scattered across the pages instead. Better. What more do you really need to know? There’s a war and this is a “soldier” fighting in it – this is his narrative, that’s all you need. If you don’t like it, then we probably wouldn’t get along all that great.

Now having said that, there were instances when I felt things were a bit forced. Admittedly, I have not been in a war, never been in a trench, and never had to feel the fear of not knowing if the next plasma grenade will pop somewhere in the distance and give me ass cancer later, or melt my balls off, but some of the scenes felt slightly unbelievable to me. At first. Then they slowly began to make sense. All of the things the protagonist experiences, all the traumas, all the rampant drug use and the reasons for it, it all makes sense.

It helps that the scenes are written in such a way that no word or sentence ever feels like filter.

Scout runs into some likable characters you’ll never know much about, but will no doubt feel the story is better with them around.

The resolution in book one and all the subsequent books is satisfying, the prose stays the same throughout, I would say it even improves, although I have to admit that the different POV’s for each book made the trilogy slightly less enjoyable for me, not because the characters weren’t as good, it is simply that the other two didn’t do to my psyche what Scout’s story did. Perhaps it is because I know what to expect (somewhat), since T.C. still manages to throw some pretty sick curveballs. Although by the third book, you notice he too likes what I like to call, “The Martin way of doing things.” (although this is military sci-fi, so it’s not really a big deal) You like a character? Pow. Dead. Oh, you like that one too? I don’t know what happened to him, dead probably. Problem?



Dec 7, 2013

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Everything Connects

Reality-thinking, autistic thinking, and that logically necessary empty category, the unconscious continuum, are all of a piece. You cannot have one without the other. Each implies the other; none are the other; none can be except by or in the other. The process of reality is an interaction between the three. They are not discontinuous. They merge slowly and imperceptibly into each other.

- A Crack in the Cosmic Egg

Dec 4, 2013

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The Way

A master was asked a question by a curious monk, "What is The Way?"
"It is right before your eyes," said the master.
"Why do I not see it for myself?"
"Because you are thinking of yourself."
"What about you, do you see it?"
"So long as you see double, saying 'I don't', and 'you do', your eyes are clouded," said the master.
"When there is no 'I' nor 'You', can one see it?"
"When there is neither 'I' nor 'You', who is the one that wants to see it?"

Dec 3, 2013

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Concepts Move From The Mind

"In the civilizations I have created time is often unstable.
It can solidify and dissipate as ice and vapor.
It can be metered out in measurements
or experienced as unending fields flooding over consciousness.

Perception is the lens through which time collapses or expands. 

As I make the marks that define how the cycles of the stars are seen.
I look to the newborn, for in each breath a universe emerges.
And I remember that time is truly defined in the blink of an eye."

"In the civilizations I have created there are worlds within worlds and dimensions unseen. Mechanisms are made to perceive the interrelations among them. Networks interweaving and influencing in ways unexpected and often misunderstood. 

The perceptions left to senses are rich, abundant and heavy with weight. But the threads that form the fullness of reality’s fabric are mixed with microcosmic instances of emptiness. These gaps feed the understanding done between and beyond the senses and defy the gravity they inherently define."

Nov 27, 2013

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Oceanic Experiences & the Now

There are numerous ways of coining what some psychiatrists call an Oceanic Experience. You might hear terms like the Oceanic Feeling or a Peak experience, but all these are in fact the same thing, a Mystical experience, an intense feeling of Presence in the Now.

The most curious thing about these experiences is surely the fact that they often, if not always, come out of nowhere and quite unexpectedly. But that's only true for those who are not aware of what triggers them, or what sets these emotions into motion. This state of unawareness might make it seem as though this feeling comes all by itself without the aid of any other stimuli, or 'triggers'.

I am here to tell you how you can try and find these triggers and stay Oceanic for as long as you can hold that concentration and Presence.

The key point I must first make is this: you need not have experienced this moment before to feel it again. If you have not, then it will be slightly more difficult for you to ascertain what might be that triggering factor you are looking for. However they are universal.

It is also important to note that the trigger will not be different for everyone, since Peak experiences are triggering the Now, and the Now is where everyone is.

Some triggers respond or are facilitated by drugs. There is nothing wrong with this. At least not if one is willing to risk potential risk from taking a drug which may (or may just as likely not) administer the feeling. But these drug-induced experiences are often times nothing in comparison to feeling Oceanic without chemical "propellants".

The beautiful thing about these experiences is that, once you know the trigger, you can stay in that feeling for as long as you wish under certain conditions. But as stated before, you must find the source first, which will always be within you to find.

The term Oceanic was coined by Romain Rolland and popularized by Sigmund Freud, who pointed out that this emotion may be a fragment of infantile conciousness, a feeling which occurs when the infant begins to differentiate himself from his human and non-human environment. I tend to agree with this notion, but that means nothing, really. Freud's 'explanation' doesn't deny the existence of it, merely offers an analytical case of what it might be. To deny the existence of it would be like denying the sun and chances are that, if you are human (which you probably are), you have had this happen to you at some point.

Freud's analytical approach holds meaning for me, because it is exactly what triggered my first case of Oceanic. In fact, it happened so early on that the emotion it provoked stayed with me since then and caused me to chase the feeling through all the years of my existence. I only discovered the truth of this a few years back, and since sought to discover how to stay in this state for prolonged periods of time.

Indeed the first case of feeling that I was separate from the rest of Everything was what began the state of Oceanic, but what made me stay in that feeling was, at the same time, a connection to everything. It is a state where things seem odd in their Justness, yet at the same time feel just as they should be -- a part of you.
This connection is like a wave, an amplitude. At its lowest point is where you might feel separate, and at its highest, one with everything. I believe it is because of this wave function that I even felt the elevated Oneness, since nothing would really seem different had I not, or would it be as profoundly obvious and powerful. No highs without the lows, they say. The key, however, is to stay in that in-between.

Images are important for you to enter this state, especially if you belong to the 60% of people who prefer visual stimuli out of all other.
If you recall the sights, smells and sounds from the first time your mind was Oceanic, you will be able to reach the state again, but such things are only of help. In this state, these things merge into a trinity to form an emotion, or help with the forming of it, even if one of these things is absent. It is thus extremely important and very helpful if you remember at least some of the more obvious sights and sounds. Smells are not as important, but still end up helping a great deal. When it comes to smell, it is more likely that the precise fragrance will not even be imprinted upon your mind, but the certain subtleties about it and how you felt when you smelled it.

Through my talks with those who had had the experience and reading about cases of it, I have come to a conclusion of the aspects required in terms of outside senses to reach Oceanic.First allow me to list them out, then go a bit more in-depth into each of them.

1. The quality of light

2. Random background sounds that are of a natural source, like a stream or the rustle of leaves or the song of birds.

3. A certain sight of something which seems finite, standing over a backdrop of something that appears infinite. It can be vice versa, meaning something which seems infinite upon the background of something which appears finite.

4. Smells of trees in bloom or wood in general.

5. A peaceful mind absent of concerns, even if only for the time being.

6. A state of waking or half-sleep.

What these things will help you with is to enter the Now. That is what this feeling really is, an intense Presence in the moment, where are future and past dissolvee. Focusing on these triggers will help you stay in the Now, they are grounding you in the Now. Leave your mind behind in these moments and you will find the ocean and in the ocean, Yourself.

Nov 24, 2013

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The Astral Plane

Life is geometry. Every aspect of our Self is quantified and measured, minute differences are corrected upon currents of ineffable mystery and in strange, unpredictable movements of possibility that shape us, but are not truly what makes us. The real us is on some different plane altogether, watching the shifting scale, marveling.
Yet every chemical imbalance skews the scale and every change in vibrational structure breeds chaos, taking us further from the one who watches.
The mind's geometry thrives on balance. But rarely is such a balance reached and maintaining it is no easy task.
Geometrical patters of intrinsic value and endless possibility reach and surge through us daily, reorganizing, remeasuring, recombining and re-establishing, crashing, ebbing and flowing, annihilating upon each other.
Destroyed patters of the within show in every aspect of the without. Inner alchemy transforms the outer shell of our existence and crashes our minds against interior walls that feel insurmountable. But no geometry exists in infinity where all is but possibility, so all walls can be scaled and passed through, circumvented or tunnelled through, yet no such scaling is needed and to escape the entrapment of geometry one simply has to stop identifying with it. A thing harder for some than others.
Yet the knowledge is hidden -- the secret that everything is already there, ready to be presented and taken as the mind wills. The trick then, is to recognize what shapes and moulds your own geometrical patterns, and to allow it. A difficult thing to master.
But time is short and to ourselves, at one point or another, we had all seemed the type who will never die, a ridiculous notion, and sometimes the inevitability of our demise is what propels us faster, as though self-knowledge is a race. Instead of racing, realize that enlightenment is a moment happening through every pulse of the Now and that it surges through the Now – realize it is happening and bask in it.

[Sometimes my thoughts are laid bare and stopping them is difficult, but to stop them is not my desire, so, as always, read and interpret as you wish.]

[pictures by Emma McNally]